Edmonton, Work, Weddings and Puking. What fun!

How far along? 17 weeks
Maternity clothes? Yes . .  I am huge. It's confirmed.
Best moment this week: Ah probably finally getting our mortgage signed!
Not so good moment of the week: Driving round trip to Alberta with no A/C. Windows open equals great head and earache.
Miss Anything? Feeling good? 
Movement: Not that I know of.
Gender: Not finding out.
Food Cravings: Big Macs and grilled cheese.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Jarrod's eggs with garlic and onions. Gag me now.
Symptoms: I hate RLS. It seriously is so hellish. Some days I have it ALL DAY LONG and then I can't sleep cause I have it all night. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry.
Emotions: Stressed a lot faster, forgetful and IRRITATED. My patience is thin! 
Looking forward to: MOVING MOVING MOVING. I seriously see more and more spiders in my house everyday. Yuck. I am scared to put anything on the floor and usually make Jarrod check it first.

It's so funny. Pregnancy puts you on this complete roller coaster and getting married and buying a house just adds to the fun. Well it's not THAT funny. Actually it's more frustrating, conflicting and irritating. Sometimes to the point of being depressing. Explanation??

I am working right now. I love my job. I do. It's usually pretty low stress, I have a great boss and I like the pace and options I have with it and I get an amazing pay cheque every two weeks considering what I do. BUT I CAN"T WAIT TO NOT BE WORKING!!! Why you may ask? A whole whack of people when inquiring about my life and hear that I am taking lay off soon look at me with that look in their eyes like "Why are you not going to work? Women can work pregnant. I worked pregnant. It's stupid to quit this soon. You are going to regret it." And I understand their opinion and respect it but it's complicated for some of the following reasons:

1) When I am on full shift, Jarrod and I only see each other 4 days a month. People always go, well then you have no time to fight. WRONG. It means when you do see each other ALLLLL you do is fight because you both have different ideas of what you want to do, both of you can't agree on what to prioritize and you have been on different pages for the last two weeks because all you do is text each other a couple times a day. Every weekend I am home, we fight and fight and fight. And then he blames it on me being pregnant. Which is really annoying.

2) The house is Jarrod's, not mine. THIS IS SOOOO MUCH MORE FRUSTRATING THEN IT SOUNDS. Jarrod is home more then me and to tell you the truth I hate the house we live in but I am moving soon and I really hope there are some changes. But right now it is so frustrating because Jarrod is very stubborn and set in his ways with how the house is. Even with us moving into a different house at the end of the month, Jarrod constantly overrules me saying I can do this and can't do that and my idea is the dumbest thing he's ever heard and he proceeds to tell EVERYONE how dumb my idea is. This has to go on the walls and this can't and on and on and on. And I love him, I really do but if there is someone in competition to how stubborn I am, Jarrod would win hands down. I told him what I wanted to do with my closet and he proceeded to tell me I couldn't do that in MY closet because he hated that organization technique. I looked at him and said THATS MY CLOSET AND I WILL DO IT HOWEVER I WANT. You have your own. But anyways, once I am the one who is home everyday he can no longer one up me and say, well you are never home anyways. Roles will be reversed finally. Hallelujah. Then I can change it and he can come home and just survive with the fact that I already changed it. 

3) Jarrod really hates the fact that I work and wants me home. Most people tell me to just tell him to suck it up and deal with it. But that is almost impossible when you just want to avoid contention to get through your weekend. It's probably where the most tension is in our relationship and is so stressful and frustrating that I am willing to give in because some things just are not worth it. Pick your battles right?

4) Being pregnant and not being able to choose what you eat is a nightmare. Pretty self explanatory. Camp food is not appealing for those even in the best of health and with good appetites. Camp food for a pregnant woman who is still puking twice a day on a full  Diclectin dose? Yea, you get it. And it's so much more a bigger deal when you actually experience it. Imagining isn't enough. 

5) Always being the helped and never the helper. This is so frustrating right now! We have gotten so much help these last few months from friends and family. Almost every day I get a message from someone to come help with this please? Or they just assume I am in camp and I miss out. I feel so guilty always getting the help then having to leave to camp and never being able to help back. 

That's part of my freaking roller coaster. Seems like most of it has been downs rather then ups and I am tired of downs. I am tired of feeling gross and men don't really understand everything you feel it seems. Lots of times I feel defeated just all the time. It's like I am fighting to be positive about life right now and constantly fighting just makes me more irritated. Vicious cycle. 
  Anyways, fighting to be more positive! We went to Edmonton this weekend. My mom has been up visiting the last few weeks and it has been so nice to spend time with her I must say. We headed over to Alberta for Patrice's and Julie's wedding open house which was very nice I must say. The ride over not so much but we got to the hotel late Friday night and slept in. Saturday we went to Lammle's and Cabela's and spent way too much money. And I must say most of the money was on Jarrod haha. He even felt so guilty he started coaxing me to buy a ridiculously priced sweater that we CANNOT afford and I did think about it for a minute. But I resisted in the end because I would feel like an awful person for even considering a purchase like that right now. And I am very proud I didn't take advantage of his guilt so I would feel guilty later. He even said I could get something for the baby WHICH HE NEVER SAYS. But I resisted.  We did end up getting lots of Jarrod's get up for our wedding celebration next year and some hunting stuff that he could get cheaper there rather then at home. At least that's what he said to justify the purchases :) but I was ok with it. Better this year then next year when we are down to one income. Gulp.

Saturday afternoon we went to my parent's house to help set up for the open houses and it was so HOT! and the bugs were awful. In fact, we counted the bites on my legs later and there was over 20. Yuck! The bugs haven't been super bad here this year so I guess we have been spoiled. Anyways, we got ready and ate a quick bite of pizza (Thanks Lawrence). The open house was fun and the decorations were gorgeous. Everything seemed to go smooth thanks to my parents prep and the people who helped. We got a few wedding gifts too which was unexpected and nice. It was nice to meet my two new brother in laws haha the family sure has grown this year for sure! I somehow injured my knee on Thursday night and it ached all weekend which took it's toll. We tried to go swimming at the hotel after but it just ended up in me sitting in the water shivering cause I couldn't kick my legs without my knee rebelling. But that night I slept like a rock! 

Sunday morning was full of driving back home after I graced the parking lot with my morning nausea routine. The ride home actually went pretty fast even with the windows open. It wasn't as hot as the way there till about noon so we were a bit more comfortable. We stopped in PG and looked at dishwashers and other appliances and grabbed something to eat at Taco Del Mar. Taco Del Mar and pregnancy aren't the most awesome combination by the way. Just a warning to all those who suffer from All Day Sickness. By the time we got home, we were semi exhausted but managed to find some energy to semi clean the house and get a few things packed which was nice. We need to pack haha. Lots of it is but most of it isn't. I am soooo excited to move. Words cannot even express. :)